I Still Feel The Same Way About You

I know that I still feel the same way about you
When I fell in love I knew it would last forever
I know we could face the world, you and me together
In a world full of judgment's cruelty and love
I know hand in hand we'll get through the tough

I give you my heart, hope for you to take care
I promise to stand by you and for everything to share
Nights that seem to last forever, and I cannot be with you
Days when I cannot hear you I struggle to get through

When you hold me in your arms I feel so safe and warm
You protect me through sunny days even during a storm
I know in my heart and mind our love is true and strong
Standing by each other’s side we will always get along

Deep down I believe we can last forever and day
Words of love I'll continue to write and continue to say
How much I love you and how much I care
Without you in this world I'd be nowhere

I promise you the moon and the stars in the sky
Nothing in this world can wreck this love between you and I
I'll never do anything wrong by you and I won't betray
Always and forever in your heart I'll forever stay

Each time I look at you my heart beat skips a few
I get caught up in the moment while taking a glance at you
Each time I hear you, a smile you always manage to bring
I know in my heart and soul you're my everything

Till my dying day, each day I continue to live
My love for you will grow, each day becoming more massive
The love between us is beautiful and true
I fall in love over and over again each time I look at you

What is a Friend?

What is a Friend?
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.
Where in the word friendship does betrayal show up?
1. A. To give aid or information to an enemy of; commit treason against: betray ones
b. To deliver into the hands of an enemy in violation of a trust or allegiance: betrayed Christ to the Romans.
6. To be false or disloyal to: betrayed their cause; betray one's better nature.
7. To divulge in a breach of confidence: betray a secret.
8. To make known unintentionally: Her hollow laugh betrayed her contempt for the idea.
9. To reveal against one's desire or will.
10. To lead astray; deceive.
Now I want everyone to sit back an honestly ask themselves how good is

I <3 Kaylen

Gazing

Gazing into a mirror, each morning everyday something new appears.

I look in the mirror at the flesh of what I’ve know to be me all my life. Until one day all the imperfections stood out. The mirror broke scattering pieces across the floor. I bent down to pick up the pieces and realized that I am the pieces, in pieces. As I look at myself separated in all those pieces the mirrors pieces began to shatter even more. What am I?

The imperfections start to appear more and more by now my hands are bloody from trying to pick up the pieces of myself. Every time I try to fit a piece together I bleed more and the pieces don’t fit. Voices in my head are telling me “you are the crowd you keep”, how true is this? Have I become the very ones that I despise? Am I no better than the enemy? I am not like her, but wait who is the girl in all these pieces of the mirror? Am I like her? Is that I or am I she?

I remember her I finally got a hold to a piece. Wait. I remember. She is the girl who gave one her all and in return he gave her an empty spot in her heart. There is a whole straight through it. Only thing is the heart is still beating but it has no rhyme to rely on. She was the girl who had a best friend that betrayed her trust. I remember she was the girl that bounced from home to home looking for someone to end the looking. The girl she gave up on life.

My hand, oh my hands are so torn. I’m throbbing I still cant put the mirror back together I cant let her fall apart and stay that way I must help her. She is trying to help herself, but she needs me. Me only I can help her. Am I she? Is she me? I am her! I’m picking her up, but every time I pick her up a new cut appears on my hand and I throw the glass back down and it shatters into more pieces.

This girl in the mirror keeps hurting my hands. She wants me to pick up the pieces and put her back together, but I can’t. I keep bleeding. And she, she keeps crying.

The Meaning Of <3

Music means that world to me.

I remember the first time I heard sound.

Not exactly, but when I fell in love for the first time I was in band.

Band meant the world to me I’ve played my clarinet since 5th grade and all through high school.

As I sit back and remember this big impact music has had on my life.

It started everything that I love.

My beautiful son Kaylen came from a great musician I was in love with.

Music brings people with no similarities together. Only that they sound good together.

Bob Marley used music to unite nations.

Motown paved the way for black music.

Cadillac records.

Temptations. Tina Turner. Al Green. Marvin Gaye. Old school made a way for new school.

Music is a way of life.

I love music.

Sinking

The ship set sail.
I gave up.
I threw in the towel.
I can't keep doing this.
One moment were ok, the next we’re at WWIII.

I gave up.
There is nothing left worth fighting for.
Is fighting worth fighting for?
No trust.

I gave up.
Every time I tried to make it right I only did wrong.
You never saw the good in me, only what you wanted to see.
No love.

I gave up.
You gave up on us.
I thought we were like sisters and sister stick together.
No commitment.

I gave up
I’m sinking this ship because its destination is nowhere.
It’s carrying empty cargo.
No nothing.

I gave up, because giving up is never the thing to do.
I gave up, because I finally see you for you.
I gave up, because what more can I do for you?
I gave up, because everything well nothing pleases you.
I gave up, because when I gave, you gave it up.

The ship sinks.

Random Moments Of Feelings

I miss you when you gone.
When I'm all alone I think of you.

You The One He Gave His Name Too

Sometimes me I just have his nights
He can't love you, if he's with me
I just can't see
That he could be
A man with me
And then he goes home to you

Why won't he say that he thinks of you when he is with me
He says he wants me
When I'm in his arms and it is as if there is no one else
Is he making me decieve myself

Should I continue these moments of happiness
Or should I leave them
When he is holding you does he think of me
Or is it me

But your the one he gave his name too.

Living A Lie

Cuz we out here livin' a lie,
Out here livin' a lie,
I'm out here livin' a lie,
Why what makes you smile seem to make you cry
I'm out here livin' a lie,
I'm out here livin' a lie,
We out here livin' a lie,
Behind these smiles I'm really hurting
Inside-side-side-side oh no ,Inside-side-side-side oh no,
Inside-side-side-side oh no ,Inside-side-side-side I wana be true.
(Rihanna & The Dream)

Ever felt that you were living a lie? Ever been that person that they call after they leave the person they're with house? Or how about if he asks you which is better for her cramps advil or alieve? Knowing that while you were with him, he didn't do that for you. How can you go from being his sun to the ground that he walks all over? Then he only cares about the dirt on the ground when it gets on his news shoes. Then he goes home and washes it all away. Ever feel what it feels like to feel?

It feels worse than cheating because we're out here living a lie.

Behind these smiles I'm really hurting
Inside-side-side-side oh no,Inside-side-side-side oh no,
Inside-side-side-side oh no,Inside-side-side-side i wanna be true

I hear about his other relationship and it just aint true. I can't tell nobody how I feel, or how it is.

Inside. Inside. Inside. Inside. Inside. Inside.

I wanna be with you.

Hurt.

One thing my grandmother use to say was “when you laugh the world laughs with you, but when you cry the world laughs at you”. I just don’t understand how people can be so cruel to me and people that once loved me act like they don’t have a care for me in the world. I just can’t turn feelings on and off I’m not cold. Maybe I need to be colder hearted to fit in this world, full of all this confusion and heart break.

People don’t appreciate the type of person that I try to be. They take me for granted and think that I will always be there to fall back on. I won’t because I’m to hurt. I can’t keep helping people above helping myself. I need to just start putting myself first and not care about any one or anything because caring is showing weakness. Maybe if I was a boy I could understand, but I just can’t from where I stand.

Every time I let my guard down for a person they fail. Is it just me? Am I incapable of being happy? Is there no one there for me? That’s what it’s starting to feel like. I have to just not have it all there. I guess I’m looking for things in people that just aren’t there.

Obama 08

The Faces Of Friendship

Walk with me
down they way a friendship should be.

Smile with me
the way a friendship should smile.

Dance with me
even when we have no friendship music.

Text with me
even when we have no friendship to text about.

Sing with me
when I forget our friendship had a sound.

Face the faces of friendship with me.



Dedicated to Ashley.

Mother Of Mine

I just want everyone to take a moment and realize how important their Mother is.

Your mother will stand behind you when the world stands against you.
Your mother will talk to you when everyone else hates you.
Your mother will take a chance for you when your all chanced out.
Your mother will cry with you when the world made you cry.
Your mother should never be taken for granted for a second because that could be mins you lose with the best person in the world.
Your mother will wait for you when everyone else leaves.
Your mother will always be your mother even long after she is gone. Your still here, always remember she made you.

Stay with me AWHILE

No. No. No. No.

I’m trying to say what’s in my heart. You won’t know unless you give it a try.
Understand me I love you. I’d rather die before, be I lie to you.
- 112

Through out our lives people come in and out. It’s not how often people come in your life, it is what they leave behind on your heart. Every time someone touches you they give a piece of themselves to you. Now it all depends on what you do with that piece that they give you shows the impact they have on your life.

Sometimes I feel like I’m a prisoner.

Trapped in many things that people think I should be. Living my life in a trap always wondering what I will do set of the next person off and make them walk away from me.

I’m in trouble.

Everyone wants me to be, to be is something I’m trying to be. To be is just to be me. Me.

He shot me through my soul, though my heart, oh and my mind still wont be fine.

But when I see you everything changes I just want to live my life engulfed in your arms. Your warm smile, stay with me a little while. Just forever and a day. I won’t ask for much.

Hold My Hand while I Lie

I never want to lead anyone on I know to well the feeling. They come to you bearing their heart and soul, but the mere fact that you don't feel the same at times maybe deceiving. You can like everything about a person just never enough to actually see yourself with that person.

This is a mirror. Glancing at me you would think that she is everything I could want in a woman. She is everything that I may need. But is she her everything? Mirrors always reflect an opposite image; there for how can you trust someone you see in the mirror?

Glass is clear. You can see completely what is on the other side of the glass. Then if you choose what you see behind the glass, then you’d choose the real me every time. A mirror is nearly the opposite of what and who I am.

Let me tell you bout an, 80's BaBy!

Oh, Baby you want Me?

Mend My Broken Thoughts

Why must you constanly bring me pain and pleasure every moment were together? But every moment were apart I need to hear and feel you near. I feel that were so right together, but everything between us goes wrong everyday. Could I love you? Could you love me? Could we be? Could? Should? It's broken.


Broken. Torn. Ripped. Seperated.



Everything broken can not always easily be fixed. We can't be fixed. We won't be fixed. I give. You give. We gave our all.



Boken is what we are and continue to be, though I never really knew how you felt about me. You never loved me for me from the start. You like a mere image of me, that will one day tarnish. Beauty you see, but not really me. Not me. Just a still of what I could be. A picture of me.


Broken.